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Monday, January 11, 2016

What Are You and I Desperate For?

"I'm crying out in desperation
Waiting now in expectation.
Crying out in desperation for You."

As I'm worshiping God on Sunday morning, this song (Heaven Fall Down) was the last song we sang, and it made me think first of a few people that need to be "desperate" for God.  Some of them need to even want to be desperate for God, and I'm not sure they realize it. So I was praying as I sang, "God make them desperate for you."

Then I was convicted by my own need to be desperate for God.  So, since I don't have a lot of typing time, I'll just jump into sharing some areas that I need to be - and am - desperate for God.

  • Wisdom for Shari and I to care for couples that God has placed in our lives.  Some of them are in crisis, some just need input from a couple who have been around the block a few more years than them (like 10+ more years).  We can't just depend on our experience, but we need to speak from God's heart and mind.
  • Creating adventure and spiritual lessons with Shari for my boys so that they're not learning life lessons the much harder way of jumping into sin and discovering just how empty it is.
  • Depending on God for our provision rather than being content with just getting a paycheck.  That is, I want to be aware that God's always the one providing, not our church (my employer), not my hard work, and not taking it for granted.
  • I need to want to be desperate for God... so much so that I don't fall into the variety of traps Satan places to distract me with good things that aren't God's things in my life.
  • I want to make my love for and life with Shari to be an adventure we do together, and not just do life together floating along and being content with whatever happens, or - even worse - each of us doing our own thing rather than ministering and living life and raising kids and - most importantly - growing in Christ together as a team.
So those are some thoughts that occurred to me during our time of worship on Sunday.  I still pray that others would be desperate for God, but I want to make sure that my heart is pursuing Him that way and not get cocky or prideful about how others aren't.

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Wednesday, January 06, 2016

2015 Book Reviews Pt. 3

I didn't do a reading review in 2014, primarily because of time, and I wasn't blogging much in Dec. 2014/Jan. 2015. This time, I'm reallyi trying to blog at least once a week. So, I'm dividing my lists into 3 sections:

Military History
Spiritual
Brain Candy

Most of my reviews are a few sentences in length, but, as you might expect since I didn't blog much at the beginning of 2015, either, my reviews for books I read during that time are rather short, too. In addition, these reviews (brain candy) were short because the books were so light, there wasn't much to review. They were either fun or not.

So, without further ado, here's today's reviews of Brain Candy.

1)Tom Swift and the Cosmic Astronauts (by Victor Appleton II). Serious brain candy. *

2)The Westing Game (by ??) - A murder mystery of sorts that I read to Benjamin.
*.5

3)Hardy Boys: The Clue of the Broken Blade - * simply because it's the Hardy Boys. I read this one to Matthew.

4)The Hawk That Dare Not Hunt By Day (by Scott O'Dell) - Historical Fiction regarding the story of William Tyndale. Read it to Benjamin. Good story, and brought some good discussion with him.

5)Secret Agent on Flight 101 - Hardy Boys Book I read to Matthew.
*

6)Dawn of the Jedi: Into the Void (by ) - This was good brain candy, and a good book in the Star Wars Universe. As the title implies, this occurs centuries before Anakin was born, even before hyperdrives were invented. Good story. *

7)As You Wish (by Cary Elwes)- A great memoir of the making of Princess Bride, with a little bit of Cary's (Westle's) biography and the history of the book thrown in for good measure. This is a fun and funny book, with some poignant parts, as well. It's more than brain candy, yet not deep. It's difficult to put into any one genre - much like Cary says everybody struggled to categorize the movie - so difficult to rate, but I think I'll give this
*.5. It's not quite good enough for 4 stars, but close.

8)Law of the Desert Born (by Louis L'Amour) - A collection of short westerns. Good brain candy. .5

9)Sackett's Land (by Louis L'Amour) - The beginning of the Sackett Saga. Good start. I enjoy this author tremendously. Hearing stories about the women he portrays makes me appreciate my wife all the more, as she's got similar characteristics of the women L'Amour portrays: Willing to go on adventures with the man she loves; willing to do hard things; loves the outdoors. Yeah, I'm glad she's my wife.
*

10)To The Far Blue Mountains (by Louis L'Amour) - Book number 2 of the Sackett Saga. Continuation of Barnabas Sackett's story, and how he finally died a warrior. *

11)The Warrior's Path (by Louis L'Amour) - Book number 3 of the Sackett Saga. This book follows - primarily - Kin-Ring Sackett, Barnabas' first-born, with a little more about Yance, son #2, as they break up a group of female slavers.
*
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Tuesday, January 05, 2016

Book Reviews from 2015: Pt. 2

I didn't do a reading review in 2014, primarily because of time, and I wasn't blogging much in Dec. 2014/Jan. 2015. This time, I'm reallyi trying to blog at least once a week. So, I'm dividing my lists into 3 sections:

Military History
Spiritual/Leadership Growth
Brain Candy

Most of my reviews are a few sentences in length, but, as you might expect since I didn't blog much at the beginning of 2015, either, my reviews for books I read during that time are rather short, too.

So, without further ado, here's today's reviews of Spiritual/Leadership Growth.

1)Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire (by Jim Cymbala & Dean Merrill) - Putting the Holy Spirit, Prayer, and doing things God's way first in your life and the life of the church. This is my first of several repeat reads. Pastor Cymbala somehow (God's Spirit?!) is able to speak to things with power and authority that we need to hear. *

2)The Way of the Wild Heart (by John Eldredge) - Excellent book about what it means to become a man of God. This is an extension of his first book, Wild At Heart. *

3)The Mission, The Men, and Me (by Pete Blaber) - While it's selling point was the subtitle, "Lessons From A Former Delta Force Commander," implying it was another book about US Special Operations, this book is really a leadership book. There are some great lessons learned from the stories Mr. Blaber tells, beginning way back in the 90's through the winter of 2002 in Afghanistan, and Operation Anaconda. The lessons are excellent, though I think I took more away from "The Trident." There is significantly less profanity than most military books, showing more professionalism in writing, in my opinion. I give this book , but I don't think I'll be putting this on my "To buy" list. It's lacking the emotional connection that "The Trident" had. It's a 4-star book, but a different kind of 4-star.

4)They Smell Like Sheep (by Dr. Lynn Anderson) - A fantastic book on pastoring. This is my second time reading this book, and well worth a second look... or even a third. .5

5)Under the Unpredictable Plant (by Eugene Peterson) - One of my favorite books on pastoring, this is a Pastor Peterson's look at what pastors can learn from Jonah. Great lessons here. I found myself learning things, and relearning things. Again, another repeat read, but worth it. .5

6)The Speed of Trust (by Stephen M.R. Covey) - This is a phenomenal book! It rocked my world, making me realize - or maybe admit would be a better word - how imperfect is - how much work I've still got to do on - my integrity as a man of God. However, he doesn't stop there. He makes the case for why trust and integrity are actually important to business and other types of relationships - beyond the obvious fact that friendships are based on trust; a case for the idea that trust is actually a measurable commodity; how to build up trust from a starting point, and what to do if trust is broken - by the reader, or against the reader. It's an excellent book, though really only useful if one is willing to be honest with one's self. I was, and it struck me right between the eyes in terms of where I still need God to transform my heart and the way I love others. *

7)The Signature of Jesus (By Brennan Manning) - Brennan once again does an excellent job of communicating the grace of God, while calling us to worship Him with our lives rather than just our words. Probably my biggest take-away, though not my only one by far, was to keep my focus on Christ - in worship, prayer, trust... Everything. A good, convicting book that I've read a second time now.

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Monday, January 04, 2016

2015 Reading & Reviews

I didn't do a reading review in 2014, primarily because of time, and I wasn't blogging much in Dec. 2014/Jan. 2015. This time, I'm really trying to blog at least once a week. So, I'm dividing my lists into 3 sections:

Military History
Spiritual
Brain Candy

Most of my reviews are a few sentences in length, but, as you might expect since I didn't blog much at the beginning of 2015, either, my reviews for books I read during that time are rather short, too.

So, without further ado, here's today's reviews of Military History.

1)Fearless (by Eric Blehm) - Story of Navy SEAL Adam Brown, from childhood to dark, college-aged period of trying to find purpose to time as Navy SEAL, and the impact for Christ of his life on those around him. (Read this one twice in order to read it to Matthew, and a little to Ben.) *

2)The Only Thing Worth Dying For (by Eric Blehm) - Story of a Green Beret unit (12-man team) who helped put Karzai in power within three months of 9/11/2001. A good story and history lesson. *

3)Killing Lions (by John & Sam Eldridge) - What does it look like to transfer from boyhood to manhood, ideally in your 20's, but for men of all ages, especially those whose fathers weren't there - or didn't know how - to help them become a many. (Read this one multiple times - with Michael and Mark, as well as David Poland) *

4)Into the Fire (by Dakota Meyer & Bing West) - Autobiographical story of the first living Marine in 30 years to receive the Medal of Honor, and the battle in Afghanistan he survived in order to receive it. .5

5)The Trident (by Jason Redman & John Browning) - Autobiographical leadership story of Jason Redman's journey - becoming a SEAL officer, being broken because of his pride and lack of teachability, being rebuilt through humility and learning to be teachable (even by those "below" him), and then his recovery from wounds that almost kill him. This is not about how he became a SEAL, or his life before becoming one, though those things are touched on.

6)The Outlaw Platoon (by Sean Parnell & John Bruning) - The story of a year in Afghanistan with 3rd Platoon of the 10th Mt. Division, as told by the Lt. who lead them during that year. *

7)The Lions of Kandahar: The Story of a Fight Against All Odds (by Major Rusty Bradley and Kevin Maurer) - A great read about a major battle in Afghanistan to defend Kandahar four years after "The Only Thing Worth Dying For." At the time Major Bradley was the Captain of one of the ODA's of the Green Berets who were assigned to assist Canadian Forces in clearing out the Taliban. Instead they ended up playing a major role in the operation, and, along with U.S. air power, ended up saving the mission. *

8)Code Name: Johnny Walker (by "Johnny Walker"and Jim DeFelice) - A well written memoir about growing up in Iraq under Saddam Hussein, getting an education and getting married, then becoming an interpreter for the Navy SEALS. Not only does he cover the pain and difficulty of working for the Americans in an increasingly anti-American country, but he also covers the difficulties (physically and emotionally) of being an interpreter for the SEALS and watching his country implode. He sticks with his code name to protect family and friends still in Iraq. A good book to get a better idea of an average (I'll call him a "jack-Muslim") muslim's perspective of the Iraq war. Definitely more swearing than I think was necessary, even for a military book (most books read above had considerably less). .5

9)Battle Ready: Memoir of a Warrior Medic (by Mark L. Donald & Scott Mactavish) - Excellent memoir about growing up and becoming not just a Navy SEAL, or just a Corpsman, but a long list of different roles: Marine Recon, then Navy SEAL, then Hospital Corps for the SEALs, then a Physician's Assistant performing as a corpsman, and many other roles, too numerous to mention here. The most important part of the book though - the reason he wrote it - is he learned an important lesson through all of those years, one that cost him much, and one he wants to pass on to others so they don't have to pay a similar price... or worse. He learned the importance of asking for help, whether it's PTSD, or something simple. And who he learned it from is just as important. This is a great book for both military and civilians. *.5

10)Brothers Forever (by Tom Silko & Colonel Tom Manion) - Story of two Naval Acad. roommates and grads, the best of friends, who lost their lives in the war on terror. 2Lt. Travis Manion was a Marine officer, while Lt. Brendan Looney was a Navy SEAL. Their story is an amazing one of friendship and a desire to serve their country, even if the other died first. A well written, encouraging story to forge ahead, set a good example, and not to give up. *

11)No Way Out: A Story of Valor in the Mountains of Afghanistan (by Mitch Weiss and Kevin Maurer) - Story of a Special Forces operation in Afghanistan that went horribly wrong, and the heroic actions taken by the teams to bring everyone home. The goal was to capture or take out a senior Al Qaeda leader... by attacking in the daylight, letting them know we were coming (by sending helicopters ahead to find a path through bad weather), attacking up hill, and trying to invade a well-defended, walled compound. To add insult to injury, not only was the intelligence awful/completely wrong (intelligence said there was no water, yet satellite pics showed an obvious river flowing through), but everybody from the Capt. down try to talk the commanding officers out of the plan, and they were ignored. While the story was sad and frustrating to read, it was very well written. I didn't like the ending, not because it was poorly done, but because there's no record of anybody being disciplined, or even corrected for the arrogant operation that was obviously more about padding some upper-level commander's resume then about doing what's best for America or Afghanistan. Still, it was a great story and lesson in planning operations, as well as the stories of some great soldiers that may not have died, but gave their lives in other ways. I give it *.5

12)Guardian Angels (by William Sine) - Tells the story of Mr. Sine's experience, as well as many other para-rescue men of the Air Force. The stories are good, but the editing is very poor, with instances of poor english and words being our of order in every chapter. In addition, Mr. Sine glorifies many of his immoral and reckless behaviors, as well as the occasional disobeying of an order or two. Most, if not all, other similar books I've read, there have been instances of similar stories, but they've either downplayed them, or they've actually admitted that what they did was wrong, and shouldn't have been done. I really didn't like this book. *.5

13)That Others May Live (by Jack Brehm & Pete Nelson) - True story of Jack's life as a PJ. Much better that Guardian Angels. I'm disappointed that it ended before much of Iraq & Afghanistan, but it still had some great stories, including the story behind the rescue in "The Perfect Storm." What made it better was it rarely felt like Mr. Brehm was trying to make himself look good. He also espoused the importance of taking care of his wife. Good story. *

14)Top Dog: The Story of Marine Hero Lucca (by Maria Goodavage) - Great story of an explosives sniffing dog who saved hundreds of lives, and lost his leg saving more. While I'm not ready to start offering medals to dogs, I am ready to start treating them as more than another piece of equipment, which is what the current military rules demand. Thankfully, steps have been made, and now dogs are taken care of like their human counterparts (medivac, trained veterinarians in country, etc.) in every way except how they retire. Good book. Made me cry a couple times. *.5

15)None Braver: U.S. Air Force Pararescuemen in the War On Terror (by Michael Hirsh) Great book that does a good job of telling a wide variety of stories about the different jobs of PJ's. Doesn't go into too much detail about any particular PJ; it's more about the wide variety of missions, and how PJ's put their lives on the line to rescue folks. Good book. *

16)Roughneck Nine-One: The Extra-ordinary Story of a Special Forces A-Team at War (by Frank Antenori) - I enjoyed this book for the most part. The author did a good job of taking the reader into the lives of the men and the mission. It's the story of one particular mission that helped turn the page in what Green Berets can do in modern warfare. I suspect it was a lot scarier and more dangerous than the tone of the author suggests. *.5

17)Ashley's War (by Gayle Tzemach Lemmon) - The story of the first women to join - unofficially, of course - special operation teams. This story is primarily of the women who worked with Army Rangers, since the women were Army, but they served with all Special Ops. Their purpose: To assist in questioning, searching, and protecting Afghan women. Ashley had the sad honor of being the first woman to be killed in this "enabling unit" (that what the army terms those people who aren't officially special operations, but they assist the special ops teams in doing their jobs, so they're almost part of the teams - bomb disposal, dog handlers, etc.). This was a good book about an interesting topic that I hadn't heard of before.*.5

18)The Reaper: Autobiography of One of the Deadliest Special Ops Snipers (by Nicholas Irving and Gary Brozek) - A few good stories about the difficulties of war, but generally an average book. *

19)Seal of Honor (by Gary Williams) - Another version of the story of Operation Red Wings, but this time focusing on the biography of Lt. Michael Murphy, who not only led the operation, but was the officer who made the cell call for help that cost him his life. He later received the Medal of Honor (posthumously). The book ends with some of the other ways he was honored, and how his parents keep his memory alive. This was a good read about an honorable man. It was well written and researched, and honored Lt. Murphy well. *.5

20)Back In The Fight (by Sgt. 1st Class Joseph Kapacziewski and Charles Sasser) - The story of the first Special Op soldier (an Army Ranger, in this case) who went back into combat as an amputee, having lost his leg from a grenade during a tour in Northern Iraq. This is a great story. It's inspiring, not only for what Sgt. Kap did to get back into service, but also for the story of how he became a Ranger, things he did as a Ranger (before and after his amputation), and, best of all, the love story between him and his wife, Kim. Nothing deep or profound here, but a great story. *.5

21)Gentlemen Bastards (by Kevin Maurer) - The story of a specific Green Beret ODA in Afghanistan, as told by an embedded writer. The title of the book is the team's nick name. The author does a good job of communicating two things: The difficulties of trying to help the Afghan people create a cohesive government, specifically creating policemen, and 2)Just how boring war can be amidst all the difficulties, especially for a Special Forces unit whose focus isn't fighting but is training police units (even federal police units) how to find, fight, and/or capture bad guys. Still, though it was well written and informative, I didn't find it as interesting as other Special Forces books. I think that's in part because there wasn't a human element. He talked more about assignments, what he experienced, and the like rather than developing the human element of either the trainers or the trainees. I also found it unnecessary the amount of profanity he used, even for a military book. Overall, I'd give it **.5

22)Green Berets (by Robin Moore) - I don't usually review a book I don't finish (there have been a few this year), but I'm making an exception because I was so frustrated with this book. There were so many good things about it, I can fully understand why John Wayne made a movie from it. Yet, it was so ridiculously sexual, that I finally gave up because of the sinfulness (and downright just disgustingness) of the sexuality discussed. It may have been reality, and it may have had great stories to tell, but the sexuality issues kept me from enjoying it... or finishing it. *.5

23)Inside Delta Force (By Msg. Eric Haney) - This is an average book about an amazing Special Forces Group. It's well written, but nothing that strikes me as special itself. It's also been surrounded by controversy, as many former Delta Force soldiers have accused the author of exaggeration, sharing too much information, or out-right lying. While I'm certainly not the one to tell whether it's accurate or not, the controversy does cast a bit of a shadow over the book. I enjoyed the read, but it's not something I'd read again. .5

24)Delta Force (by Charlie Beckwith and Donald Knox (c) 1983) (Updated Epilogue by C.A. Mobley in 2000) - If one is looking to learn some military history about Delta Force and their part in the Iran Hostage Crisis of 1979-80, this is a great book to read. Col. Beckwith does a great job of sharing how Delta Force (anti-terrorism Special Operations unit) came to be, from the concept/idea received from a year spent with British SAS forces in 1962 to implementing the principles on a small scale with Special Forces in Vietnam, all the way to how they trained and prepped for the rescue mission in Iran... and why it went bad. Informative without being dry; not entertaining in a trite way, but enjoyable none-the-less. *.5
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Greatest Commandment Equals Greatest Growth

In Matthew 22:34-40, Jesus is asked what the greatest commandment of the Law is. He replies (paraphrased), "Love God and love people." I'm currently reading (among other books) "Creating Community" by Andy Stanley and Bill Willits. The authors make the poing that spiritual growth and maturity should be measured by Jesus' explanation of the greatest commandments. Whether we are truly getting to know God well and growing in our relationship with Him as disciples should be measured by whether our love for God and others is growing and being exhibited more and more in our lives. The authors then proceed to dive into what that might look like. While there are many possible outcomes of this, I'm in agreement with the authors that understanding whether I'm growing in my discipleship should not be based on how involved I am in the church. In fact, being involved in the church programs, though not bad in themselves, may actually be distracting me from becoming more intimate with Jesus, or loving others well.

So, what could be a fantastic measure of spiritual growth? I would suggest time! How much time am I spending with Jesus? Am I continually, daily pursuing Him, or only when it's convenient or necessary? How much time am I spending with people? Am I spending it only doing for them (programs and church work), or am also simply being with them, playing with them, and enjoying their company... and letting them enjoy mine. That's not to say that doing is bad. Church programs can be great tools for being with people. However, it is certainly easy to see - I suspect the reader knows people, if it's not himself or herself - when people are serving, working, and just doing, but not really caring for, being with, and enjoying the presence and personality of people. Similarly, attending church does not mean that one is spending time with Jesus, even if one could do so every day. The question is whether we're actually being with Jesus, focusing on Him, getting to know Him, and allowing Him to commune with - a two-way conversation - us.

In short, are we loving God and loving people the way Paul talks about in 1 Cor. 13? That is the kind of love that leads to spiritual and relationship growth. That's the kind of love that helps us to better grasp what it means to be a disciple of Jesus, and to understand what it means to be growing in our relationship with Him.

Got to get ready for the day, but I wanted to jot down my thoughts after reading this chapter in Stanley and Willits' book. Good stuff here.

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