Death, Tozer, & Wanting God

As I sit here and type in the early morning, we're getting word that Shari's step-dad is fine. Forty-five minutes ago we were wondering if he was going to make it. There's a sense of relief, as well as many other thoughts and emotions going through our minds. Mostly we're thankful to have him for a little longer, however long that is (hours, months, years?). We may not get to see him very often (there are years between visits), but it's the knowledge that he's there - a phone call or skype call away - that makes his presence something nice to have. Data, from STTNG, had a great definition for that type of thing, but I haven't been able to remember it, or to find the episode it was on.

God is immutable. According to Tozer, that means, "He never differs from Himself." After reading that chapter, I'm not sure why he didn't just say God never changes, but I must admit that "immutable" is a cool word to say. Tozer asks the question that many might ask: So what? His answer is simple yet profound:

"In this world where men forget us, change their attitude toward us as their private interests dictate, and revise their opinion of us for the slightest cause, is it not a source of wondrous strength to know that the God with whom we have to do changes not? That His attitude toward us now is the same as it was in eternity past and will be in eternity to come?"

I agree, that is an encouraging thought. That includes His comfort when the time comes to mourn a dad's death.
I wanted to write this morning, but I also want to be in God's presence. Not that there's any contest - God's presence is best. But I don't want to just write from my mind. I want to write from my heart because Christ's heart has filled it. As a somewhat famous guy wearing camel hair once said, "He must increase, and I must decrease." God, please increase in my heart and life. Please draw me into your presence. Pull me so hard towards you that I'm compelled, not just interested or wanting to. Please pull me with not only cords of duty, but also your kindness, grace, and love. Please pull me with the knowledge that I need your power at work in my life. Please pull me with the knowledge that there are things I need to repent of in order to not have anything come between relationally.

"Draw me close to you.
Never let me go.
I lay it all down again.
To hear you say that I'm your friend.
You are my desire.
No one else will do.
Nothing else can take your place.
To fell the warmth of your embrace.
Help me find my way.
Bring me back to you."
"Draw Me Close" as sung by the Newsboys (amongst others)

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